i ' hope ' you burn ' in hell ' for this ' shiit !

havent written in a few days..

2004-09-28T20:20:09Z

last time i wr0te was like friday when i was with chelsea .. yeha that was a cool day <3 except for the fact i wasnt able to go to the mall rawr.. and chelsea couldnt sleep over.. cas yeaha anyways um on saturday i dont really remember what i did..i mostly stood home and cleaned my house and stuff cas of the shower.. and i wasnt happy that day so yeha i pretty much chilled .. then on sunday it was the shower,it wasnt so bad i guess .. there was allot of people here though..but yeaha i guess it could of been worse.. and then yesterday i didnt feel like going to school at all.. but yeaha my mom made me so i went.. ew ; i felt like shit the hole day but okay.. but towards the end of the day it wasnt soo bad.. i really like rob though ' ugh.. hes so freakin hott :) haha.. yeha school pretty much sucks though ' but yeha n0w t0day was horrible * cas i tried doing my hair last night so it would look good today and it cam eout perfectly straight and then it hadda rain !! ew; it made my hair gross :(.. so yeha it was all frizzy and i felt/looked like shit.. but i guess school wwas alright ' me & krystal (jonatons cousind) are becoming mad chill ' ha shes mad cool .. ew ; everyone likes the same person i like stupid niggers... hah '' yeha i dono thats about all i did today ..and its pouring out so i dont think im going anywhere later.. yeha ill write agian soon <3

with ' y0u ' next ' t0 ' me ' theres ' no ' darkness ' i ' cant ' overcome <3

woo today!!

2004-09-25T02:27:08Z

today um i woke up got ready and took forever .. so i was kinda late for amandas in the morning.. and yeaha we went to school and yeha stuuuupppiiidddd ryan told rob i like him...dumbass !! im mad at you :( so now he knows and i didnt want him too uggh..but i guess its okay but chelsea was apposed to tell him roar!!!.. haha so then yeha afther school i came home..then went to katherines and chilled with her and chelsea <3 woohoo finally :) .. lol.. yehaa then i seen cece & her sister.. so we went to wendys and then they walked me home,then i was all mad cas i couldnt go to the mall and chelsea couldnt sleep over!! .. yeaha then we went to party city,best buy,and k mart.. woo fun night yehaaaa.. haha yeah now im sitting here watching viva la bam .. bored off my ass .. yeha and my cellphone is gay cas i ahvent charged it so dont bother calling.. ill write agian when something good happens...

i like you alllott <3

slut_o_matic @ 2004-09-22T15:56:00

2004-09-22T19:58:25Z

monday i woke up.. didnt feel so good but hadda go to school anyway..so yeah got ready and went to amandas.. her mom drove us to school..then yeah .. school sucks as usual.. i forgot what i did monday afther school..haha but yeah tuesday i woke up went to school..seenn this really hot kid :) woo i want him..and then when i was walking home with amanda some kidd called me fat uuggh :(.. then i came home got ready agian..and went to queenz,had chinesse food :) and dunkin dougnuts (or some spelling like that) then i think thats all i did there.. then came home watched one tree hill showered did my hair and went to bed ..now today i woke up late..got ready fast and went to amandas..went to school.. uggh i hate it !!.. but theres this really hot kid in my music class so its okay i guess ..lol yeah then me and amanda walked home .. and now im sitting here .. i dont know what im doing later or whatever but me and amanda are apoosed to hang out tommorow woo finally " we havent atually hung out in forever :/ ugh i dono why but yeha hopefully we get to hang out or something..so yehaa ill write agian when something good happens or something prolly when the shower happens or whatever.. woooooo sh0werr at my h0use :) woohooo r0's c0mingg !! haha ah havent seen her in foreveRrrrr! my stupid nigger/slut cousin <3 .. hehe ah today me and krystal told rob we think he hott.. omg hes deffffff sexy :) hah i hope he doesnt read that ..and me and alexis finally talked woohoo i Heart her <3 .. yeah and she kindof likes rob but thats okay lol..she could have him i wannttt someone else :) oh yeah and hopefully nicholes coming to the shower.. i dont know she never responded.. stupid slutbag.. haha <3

sh0wer : 4 dayS .. <3

ii HEART S0ME0NE H0TTtTTT <3

slut_o_matic @ 2004-09-19T01:29:00

2004-09-19T05:31:29Z

iiiimmmm .. oooovvvvveeeerrrr .. hhhhhiiiimmmmm . bbbbbiiiiiaaatttcccccchhhh <3

um t0day..

2004-09-19T03:59:38Z

today was so bad i guess..my parents went to alantic city so jackie was over.. me her and christina went to go see garden state..which wasnt so bad i guess.. it was kindof stupid though cas we missed alot of the movie.. we were waiting outside for a cab for like a hour and it was frezzzzzzzing.. haha.. the movie was pretty good..then afther that we went and had pizza.. came back to my house and chilled for a while.. and now im sitting here thinking about yesterday ugggh :(

an0ther suRvey i to0k fr0m niChoLe sh she d0esnt kn0w <3

2004-09-18T16:49:06Z

BASICS
(1) Your gender: female
(2) Straight/gay/bi?: straight
(3) Single?: yepp
(4) want to be?: therepist
(5) Your birth day: febuary 24
(6) Age you act: 4
(7) Age you wish you were: 89
(9) The color of your eyes: br0wn/hazel idk..
(10) Happy with it?: nooo
(11) The color of your hair: brown/blonde
(12) Happy with it?: not really
(13) Left/right/ambidextrous?: right
(14) Your living arrangement?: mom, dad, 2 brothers
(27) Your family: mom-christine, dad-donald, brother-danny, brother-john, brother-donald
(29) What's your job: dont got one
(30) Piercings?: ears
(31) Tattoos?: naa
(32) Obsessions? ashlee simpson <3
(35) Do you speak another language?: no
(36) Have a favorite quote?: uh..
(37) Do you have a webpage?: no?

DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
(38) Do you live in the moment?: sure why not
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: i guess..
(40) Do you have any secrets?: many
(41) Do you hate yourself?: uh most of the time
(42) Do you like your handwriting?: yea kinda
(43) Do you have any bad habits?:biting my nails
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people?: "omg,you cut your hair its so pretty"
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: idk whatever
(46) What's your biggest fear?: dying
(47) Can you sing: deff not
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: um no
(49) Are you a loner?: ?
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: probably not
(52) Are you a daredevil?:
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: ..
(54) Are you passive or aggressive?:
(55) Have you got a ?: do i have a question
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness?: i dont know..
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself?: handss!!!
(58) There are three wells: Love, mind, strength which one do you choose?: love
(59) How do you vent?:
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong?: i guess
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: yeah
(62) Do you think life has been good so far?: sortof
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?:dont tell anyone anything unless you really know they wont say anything
(64) What do you like the most about your body?: my noseee!
(65) And least?: my feet/hands
(66) Do you think you are good looking?: not at all
(67) Are you confident?: sometimes
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like?: super woman..niggaaa
(69) Do people know how you feel?: nah
(70) Are you perceived wrongly?: what?
(71) Smoke?: no
(72) Do drugs?: no
(73) Read the newspaper?: no
(74) Pray?: no
(75) Go to church? when im forced..
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you?: sure
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals?: yes
(78) Take walks in the rain?: yeahh
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them?: no
(80) Drive?: no
(81) Like to drive fast?: ..?
HAVE YOU EVER...
(82) Liked your voice?: no?
(83) Hurt yourself?: on purpose? once or twice..
(84) Been out of the country?: no
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick?: idk
(86) Burped?: yeah
(87) Been unfaithful?: ..
(88) Been in love?: no
(89) Done drugs?: no
(90) Gone skinny dipping?: no
(92) Had a surgery?: no
(93) Ran away from home?: sortof
(94) Played strip poker?: No Cheated?: no..
(95) Gotten beaten up?: no
(97) Been picked on?: i guess
(98) Been on stage?: no
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath?: no
(100) Slept outdoors?: Yeah
(101) Thought about suicide?: once..
(102) Pulled an all-nighter?: yeah
(103) If yes, what is your record?: um the hole day/night
(104) Gone one day without food?: yea
(105) Talked on the phone all night?: Yeah
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?:dont think so
(107) Slept all day? yeah
(108) Killed someone?: um no?
(109) Made out with a stranger?: stranger..no
(110) Had sex with a stranger?: no
(111) Thought you're going crazy?: no
(112) Kissed the same sex?: ..
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex?: no
(114) Been betrayed?: probably
(115) Had a dream that came true?: yeah
(116) Broken the law?: idk..probably
(117) Met a famous person?: met ? no
(118) Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: a ant
(146) Stolen anything?: yeah
(147) Been on radio/TV.: no
(148) Been in a mosh-pit?: no
(150) Considered religious vocation?: no
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance?: no?
(152) Bungee jumped?: No
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back?: yeah

CLOTHES and other fashion
(154) Shoe brand?: nike,phat farm, jordan
(155) Brand of clothing?: idk pretty much anything i like
(156) Do you wear cologne?: yes
(159) Wear hats?: yea
(160) Judge other people by their clothing?: haha depends..
(161) Wear make-up?: yeah
(162) Favorite place to shop?: stores?
(163) Favorite article of clothing?: jeans..
(164) Are you trendy?: um dont think so
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: noo

BELIEFS
(166) Believe in life on other planets?: yeha!
(167) Miracles?: no
(168) Astrology?: no
(169) Magic?: yeah
(170) God? : no
(171) Satan?: no
(172) Santa?: ahah no
(173) Ghosts?: yes
(174) Luck?: no
(175) Love at first sight?: no
(176) Yin and Yang?: um.. wtf
(177) Witches?: no
(178) Easter bunny?: deff
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: yeah
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: oh most deffintly
(181) Do you wish on stars?: i have..didnt work out though

LOVE
(182) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: No
(183) Do you remember your first love?: yeah
(184) Still love him/her?: no
(185) Do you consider love a mistake?: yeah most of the time
(186) What do you find romantic?
(187) Turn-on?:
(188) Turn-off?:
(189) Do you base your Judgement on looks alone: not really..
(200) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: Idk..
(201) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"?: knowing someone
(202) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: not really
(203) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: haha yes
(204) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: idk ,
(205) What is best about the opposite sex?:idk
(206) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: ummm
(207) What's the last present someone gave you?: my stuffed animal duck!!
(208) Are you in love?: no
(209) Do you consider your significant other hot?: huh
(210) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk?: look at them..?

THE LAST PERSON...
(211) That haunted you?: um?
(212) You wanted to kill?: nick ..
(213) That you laughed at?: my brother
(214) That laughed at you?: idk
(215) That turned you on?: um?
(216) You went shopping with?: my mom
(217) That broke your heart?: ummm.. no one
(218) To disappoint you?: my mom
(219) To ask you out?: tom
(220) To make you cry?: myself
(221) To brighten up your day?: um..
(222) That you thought about?:
(223) You saw a movie with?: jackie & christiana
(224) You talked to on the phone?: my grandma
(225) You talked to through IM?: erica
(226) You saw?: donald
(227) You lost?: like friendship wise..debra :(
(229) You thought was completely insane?: idk
(230) You wanted to be?: spider man
(231) You told off?: prolly some girl for erica

suRvey thinG i st0le fr0m niChoLe .. she she d0esnt kn0w <3

2004-09-18T04:47:48Z

Name: monica
single or taken: single !!
sex: female
bday: feb 24
sign: pisces
siblings: 3 older brothers
hair color: blonde/brown
eye color: brown/hazel idk?
shoe size: 7
height: 5'2

r e l a t i o n s h i p s
who are your best friends?: .. um amanda ..
do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: naa
who?:
did your crush send this to you?: no?

f a s h i o n | s t u f f
where is your favorite place to shop: the store!
any tattoos or piercing: yeah

s p e c i f i c s
do you do drugs?: no
what kind of shampoo do you use?: um.. some ''blonde'' stuff
what are you most scared of?: dying
What are you listening to right now?: the tv
who is the last person that called you?: jackie
where do you want to get married?: somewhere far away from here
how many buddies are online right now?: 15
what would you change about yourself?: my small hands

f a v o r i t e s
color: purple!!
food: pizza
school: ew .. i dont like school

h a v e | y o u | e v e r
given anyone a bath?: yeah
smoked?: um.. no?
bungee jumped?: i wish!!
made yourself throw up?: yeah
skinny dipped?: nope
been in love?: no
made yourself cry to get out of trouble? yes
pictured your crush naked?: um no sorry
actually seen your crush naked?:
cried when someone died: yeah
lied: yeah
fallen for your best friend?: yeah
been rejected?: haha..no not exactly
rejected someone?: yea
used someone?: no
done something you regret?: yeahhh

c u r r e n t
clothes: pajama pants (red).. shirt that doesnt match at all (blue)
music: ciara
make-up: eyeliner,mascara
annoyance: girl on commerical
smell: fabrezze
favorite group: g unit
desktop picture: my boatt !!
book youre reading: left behind
cd in player: ashlee simpson '' autobiography
cd player: like kind ? .. sony i think
dvd in player: celluar
color of toenails: orange!!

l a s t | p e r s o n
you touched: um..
hugged: .. um i dont remember
you imed: amanda
you yelled at: my mom
you kissed: whoa way back.. john i think or maybe mike .. or nick

a r e | y o u
understanding: yeah
open-minded: sure
arrogant: idk.. wtf is arrogant
insecure: maybe?
interesting: most deff
random: i guess
hungry: no not at all
moody: haha ..yes !!
organized: yeah !!
healthy: dont think so..
shy: haha..no
difficult: kindof
attractive: idk..am i?
bored easily: yeahhh
messy: not exactly
responsible: most of the time
obsessed: with?
angry: yeah right now..
sad:alot
happy: most of the time
hyper: alwayss!!
trusting: yeah ..
talkative: eh i guess so
legal: no

w h o | d o | y o u | w a n n a
kill: one of my exs .. so bad me and erica are gunna kick his ass (gallipani) hah <3
slap: my mom
look like: ashlee simpson ( without her nose )
talk to offline: deb
talk to online: who ever wants to talk.. ?

r a n d o m
in the morning I am: deff tired
all i need is: to be with himmmm!
love is: the worst thing ..
i dream about: him

w h i c h | i s | b e t t e r
coke or pepsi: pepsi
suckers or candy: um candy?
tall or short: tall

o p p o s i t e | s e x
what do you notice first: eyes & lips
last person you slow danced with: me slow dance? prolly my dad like 1023 years ago
makes you smile: someone who doesnt make stupid comments
used to be really close to and aren't anymore: ryan
changed so much: um idk.. alot of people i guess
who do you have a crush on: someone really hot.. in my eyes anyway <3
who has a crush on you: oh just everyone lemme tell you.. haha
is easiest to talk to: myself

d o | y o u | e v e r
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to come online?: ugh yes and it never happens
save conversations: not really
wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: uh no?
wish you were younger: noo !
Cried because someone said something to you?: um no .. not when someone said something to me

y o u r | t h o u g h t s
I know: many different things
I want: uggghhhh..
I have: um idk what do i have
I wish: i could tell the person i like ` how i feel
I hate: people
I hear: the tv
I search: ..
I wonder: if johns coming home
I regret: going out with mike !!
I love: absolutly no one

F i n a l | q u e s t i o n s
gold or silver: gold
what was the last film you saw at the movies?: wicker park
what did you have for breakfast this morning?: peanut butter crunch!
who would you love being locked in a room with? chad micheal murray

IT SHOULDNT BE THAT WAY
could you live without your computer? probably
would you color your hair? yeah !!
could you ever get off the computer? um yeah?
habla espanol? no sorry
how many people are on your buddy list?: 198
like watching sunrises or sunsets? sunsets!
what hurts the most? having someone you really like..not care at all

suRvey thinGie :)

2004-09-18T04:22:08Z

Pepsi or coke? pepsi
Odd or even? odd
Straight or curly? curly
Pants or skirts? pants
Dog or cat? dog
Black or white? black
Long or short? short
Boy or girl? boy
Bra or underwear? bra
Light or dark? dark
One piece or two piece? two piece
Fiction or non-fiction? non- fiction
Guitar or bass guitar? um neither ..
Philippines or hong kong? philippines
Finger nails or toe nails? finger nails
Sister or brother? brother
Tall or short? short
Thin or fat? thin
Real or fake? real
School or house? house
Recess or lunch? recess
Love or friendship? friendship
Gold or silver? gold
Diamonds or pearls? diamonds
Chocolate or vanilla? chocolate
I love u cuz i need u or i need u cuz i love u? i need u cuz i love u

t0day.. '' my n0t s0 happy day ''

2004-09-18T04:15:27Z

today was hrm.. stupid.. i woke up,chilled for a while.. then showered and got ready and shit..then i left with donald & derek.. and watched them play pool.. um fun? haha and then we went to the mall and i ate mcdonalds and then left.. i was apposed to go to the movies.. but i never went cas i didnt feel good thats about all for today.. now im sitting here watching malcom in the middle.. teheh :).. then im prolly just gunna go upstares and sleep .. =(

& id do anythinG to liKke s0meone NewWw .. <|3

ugggh.. today

2004-09-17T03:00:14Z

well today was really gay.. i was sick last night so i slept pretty late.. and then i got up chilled for a while.. sh0wered got ready and stuff.. and went t0 the mall.. i got a green shirt to match my belt :).. haha and i g0t a stuffed animal DUCKK!! woohoo.. its S0FFFTT!! .. teheh..:) then i came home ate dinner and watched barbershop 2.. and now im sitting here.. wow that was the gayest day of my life haha.. <3

your the onLy onNee .. i wanNa be with f0rever

yester day & today so far..

2004-09-15T20:38:48Z

so yesterday i got up late for school got dressed and went to amandas she was yelling at me cas i was late.. haha <3.. school was alright i guess .. theres this really hot kid nick.. hes in most of my classes .. woo! :) .. i didnt get a chance to actually talk to him though but he seems cool.. then i walked home.. and went to queenSz ffor a while.. tired to get on the computer there but its gettho .. and then came home around 11ish and went to sleep.. so today i woke up went to school.. and seen the person i freaking wannntt argh ! .. then i was walking home and i seen erica.. so i chilled with her for a little.. and we walked to rolling hills.. cas mikes a asshole and he likes talking shit.. but yeah neither of us touched him.. then when some girls sister came to hit erica .. we like ran haha and then i came home .. my brother yelled at me and now im sitting here thinking about what im gonna do tonight... <3

havent worte in a while

2004-09-13T20:32:15Z

i just wrote everything and it got deleted .. ugh =(

anyway so yesterday i woke up and went to church ughhh funn.. well atleast i got to see my hot pastor <3 teheh .. and then i came home and got in the showerd and got ready agian.. went to the movies with jackie and her cousin.. at the movies we saw patrick uggghh..jackies like aw you like him ahah <3 .. and then we went inside and watched the movie wicker park.. it was really confusing but good.. and then towards the end the 3 of us hadda take the biggest piss.. so as soon as it ened to ran haha.. and then we went to the train and saw a cat under the tracks and a lady trying to get it..i was like um no offense but if the cat gets hit im laughing.. haha it was funny.. then we took the train back to jackies and chilled there with christina for a lil .. and then my mom came and picked me up.. so yeha today was the first day of school..wasnt as bad as i thought it would be.. it was actually pretty cool..

<3 i loveEee y0uuu <3

today..

2004-09-11T04:26:41Z

today i woke up like 1ish.. came downstares and ate with john.. chilled for a while then at like 5 my grandparents came haha funn eh? .. then at like 7 my dad took me to jamies.. chilled with her and and some other girl jamie that ai always hated.. but shes cooll .. <3 yeha so tommorow were apposed to make some kids come to her block and chill <3 ill write agian tommorow prolly ..

slut_o_matic @ 2004-09-10T01:11:00

2004-09-10T17:14:49Z

so yeha.. i havent wrote in this for a while.. cas arie made me a xanga but i like this better.. alot of shits being going on lately.. jackies babys due soon <3 .. her shower is gunna be here .. ugh there gunna be mad people in my little house .. haha .. yeah so ill write agian when something exicting happens <3

today so far...

2004-09-07T19:26:55Z

okay so today so far wasnt so bad.. i woke up around 12 cas something woke me up and i jumped.. now im really tired cas i didnt fall asleep till 4 .. and now im sititng here waiting for my mom to get home so she could drive me to the gym.. and sitting here talking to kelli about patrikk .. haha <3 .. i would be going to queenz but some asshole slashed my mothers tires.. god damn .. so yeha were prolly going to the gym and then out to eat or something.. if anyone wants to chill call my cell cas i dont wanna sit home the rest of the day... ill write tommorow <3

oh yeah and the bitch that keeps writing dumb stuff in my comments thingie.. either write your name or dont write shit..

today..

2004-09-07T01:58:46Z

today was probably the gayest most boringest day of the summer.. i woke around 12:30 .. looked around my room and notcied it was disgustingly dirty.. so i went downstares with scurffy.. walked tv for a while and ate .. went back upstares started cleaning my room.. did laundry .. took a shower got ready.. too scruffy for a really long walk.. then we came back home.. hes the cutest thing<3 .. we came home watched drive me crazy.,and chilled.. then around 7ish.. they came and picked him up =(.. tear im gunna miss him .. oh well he'll be back.. so yeah now im sitting here thinking about some stuff.. looking for people to call cause my moms making me go up stares at 10:00 .. anyone in the mood to talk ? call my cell..

havent talked to debra in a while.. i miss u sweety <3

hrm.. today..

2004-09-06T03:45:02Z

today was pretty cool i guess..i was woken up to go to church.. my arm was like sleeping and numb cas scruffy was sleeping on it so yeha.. i got up got dressed and went to church.. came home got changed and went to my dads cousins.. haha it was halirous !! me my dad and gerad were annoying everyone it was soo funny.. haha thats about it today .. now im sitting here being bored .. ill write tommorow <3

slut_o_matic @ 2004-09-05T00:02:00

2004-09-05T04:03:01Z

today was gay.. i woke up like 6.. came downstares with thee dog we were watching tv for a while and then fell asleep..woke up like 12.. got ready and went to my uncles.. ugh that was soo gay .. i was there for lke 6 hours.. anyway me and my dad took a walk over there.. wow this house was freakin beautiful!! .. haha yeah not much to write .. and my brothers kicking me off the computer .. soo yeah ill write tommorow <3

hrm..

2004-09-04T04:26:55Z

today was pretty cool..went to bed at like 3ish could not fall asleep.. and then woke up around 4:40ish went downstares and john said somethin about me going to sleep agian.. so u went upstares layed down to rest.. and fell asleep .. had the scariest/weirdest dream ever.. got mad scared woke up at 6 went downstares and layed on the couch with john even though he was sleeping.. then when my mom got up for work i went in by her and was like flipping and i could not explain the dream.. and then i was scared to fall back to sleep.. so yeah i went to the thingie at my school with amanda at 1:00.. came home went in the pool with my cousindss.. chilled with felica and her friend katie for a bit.. came home to see the puppy :) teheh i was happy.. and then got changed walked the dog .. chilled with the familee for most of the night.. talked about dreams.. ugh people have some weird ass dreams.. haha.. yeah so tommorow is gunna be gay unless something good tends to happen... ill write tommorow ..

..i miss talking to erica gallipani we havent talked much latley.. <3

ugh..

2004-09-03T10:19:51Z

okay its like 6 in the morning.. i had a really bad dream and im freakin terrified.. yeah thats pretty weird eh .. i aint no little kidd and right now im scared shit crying about to go lay next to john even though hes sleeping.. anyway didnt get a chance to right last night.. i woke up cas i heard jackie so i went downstares around 1 to chill with her for a bit..got ready and went shopping with the family.. it was pretty funny cas we cant go anywhere without fighting..which of course happened haha .. anyway im gunna go cas im really scared and crying =/.. and thanks to my dream ..

new fear :witches

.. ill write later tonight <3

b0red ..

2004-09-02T04:14:17Z

okay .. so today wasnt so bad i woke up around 1ish realized i had adoctors apointment and had to be ready by 3:o0.. so i jumped in the shower .. got out and dressed and donald asked me to walk with him to the bus stop.. so yeah that was like another hour .. then he gave me a bike to ride home.. hrmm to bad i cant ride a bike.. so if anyone seen me they were probably laughing there ass off .. because im a retart and i dont know how to ride a bike..haha.. then i got home , finished getting ready .. and then left .. doctors took forever .. then i went out to eat with my mother.. came home and got ready a little more .. and went to br0oklyn.. it was pretty cool i guess .. kindof emotional .. haha and now im sitting here sweating my ass off.. yeah ill write agian tommorow

survey thingie i stole from ro <3

2004-09-01T05:54:16Z

1.what is your full name? monica falcone

2. what color shirt are you wearing? white

3. what song are you listening to right now? ..the simpsonssssss

4. what is your phone number? wouldnt you like to know

5. what was the last thing you ate? cookies

6. if you were a crayon, what color would you be? megenta

7. how is the weather right now? humidy

8. the last person you talked to on the phone? jackie

9. first thing you nottice about the opposite sex? lips

10. favorite drink? sprite

11. who do you like? some hot kid.. idk his name

12. who would you concider your BEST friend? amanda

13. what is your favorite sport(s)? basketball

14. eye color? brownish

15. do you wear contacts? nope

16. favorite month? august

17. favorite food? um?

18. last movie you watched? secretary

19. favorite day of the year? october 31

20. are you too shy to ask someone out? shy?haha no

21. favorite board game? life!

22. what did you do last night? i dont remember

23. favorite smell? strawberries!!

24. can you touch your nose with your tounge? actually ..yes :)

25. buttered, plain or salty popcorn? um none ..

26. favorite car? escalade

27. can you juggle? nope

28. favorite day of the week? saturday

39. first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning? i gotta piss

30. when is you birthday? febuary 24th

slut_o_matic @ 2004-09-01T01:01:00

2004-09-01T05:08:43Z

yeah so today was pretty gay .. i woke up around 1ish went downstares and was talking to john for a bit.. then he told me to call my mother so i did .. she was freakinggggg (no need to say why) .. so yeah we hung up and then i had a bowl of coco pebbles :) .. john left so it was me nichole and donald.. then i jumped into the shower got out and yeah got ready and shit.. did just about nothing until 7ish .. then i went to drive nichole home with my mother .. it was pretty sucky cass i had this really bad pain in my chest so then i got a milkshake & cookies at mcdonalds =).. then i drove back home .. got a binder and put the convo i have with me a ro .. pretty much about niggers .. lmao <3 and the convo with erica gallipani its like 85 pages long haha i loveeee her heheh.. yeah now im sitting here with my brother watching that 70s show then the simpsons,just shoot me,and king of the hill hehe we are cool kidds 8-) .. i wrote a few poems today .. it was really weird cas they just like came to me haha .. now since nichole left im all lonley cas its just me and my brother.. and hes eating pickels and they smell really bad haha <3 .. ill write tommorw